If I wake up in the morning and hear about an accident on the news does that mean I made it happen?

Two kids were running around yesterday and they ran into each other and the boy fell down and started crying. I guess that means my thoughts cause others to hurt themselves. That's sad. Maybe if I wasn't around I wouldn't be the cause of so much trouble. Yeah, that's it. Humans have ways of devouring each other as a species with all the pain and harm they cause. I guess I'm just another hunter on that list. No wanting to hurt anyone but always finding ways to do it: bumping into someone or speaking to harshly or neglecting something or grunting or whistling or wearing heavy clothes in hot weather or short pants in windy cold weather. These are all ways that I hurt others around me emotionally so maybe life would be better if I rested in peace and didn't wake up. That would kill two birds with one stone: I'm not around to potentially hurt others anymore (them weeping for me will soon stop as they focus more on their own lives and less on me and forget about me) and I'm not around to physically hear or read others statements (relatives, God, etc) about how I am not behaving properly and I am filfthy trash. No matter what I do I can't please my Creator all the time and I can't please my mom all the time and if I please myself then I am being rebellious so I might as well die. It will keep me from feeling anymore pain or directly hurting them. Everyone has a gun pointed in my face emotionally ready to blow my head off! I'm surrounded on all sides. That's fine! I need to be alone. I don't need anyone to bail me out. I'll be okay on my own. My death is for the best.